not I never thought about suicide, just to appease someone. Some people disdain because they deserve it, others love them deeply.
Tonight I was moved. I found someone that I was missing for some time, and in its purest form.
I was there and there was a nice background, from the movie. It was Mysteries Beth Gibbons.
Whatever you are doing at the time, when you listen to that song you have to stop and reflect, it does not matter if you lose three minutes of your life to empty, you just stand still. Try it. She is the voice of Portishead, and is a real orgasm.
I said that tonight I found some people and I did well.
Daniela says I have the gift of controversy and that is why I write. I disagree. Just to not deny it. But do not argue.
I told some 'of their three things and not seen for some time. A few months of absence. Sometimes the phone rang, but I deeply hate the phone so no. When Daniel accompanied me home, we decided to make a stop at the bar on via Gallia. A beautiful night bar full of vulgar and some trans, a bar where the bartenders are cheerful and cashiers go to the bathroom for a moment blowjobs otherwise fall asleep. Here are all stoned. The bartender who claims to be Roman, but its color is. Not Roman. "Where are you from? Are in Rome. You were born here? Yes yours? No my no. Oh and where are they? My mother is Filipino."
A girl surrounded by boys only visibly drunk. These boys are boys so little glances to create a hierarchy. We do not know who should fuck. It's not really pretty tonight but there's nothing better. They look around and nobody is there. She seems very friendly. It would probably be well prepared to prove that I know what an orgy or a four. But they may not know or even guess. Today, the males are distinguished by their being this gullible than women. They are uninhibited, and outrageously low-cut, are frightening. We returned to the femme fatale of the nineteenth century. The woman now is a real tiger Verga man has so much fear of aggression. Poor bastards forced to slaughter of hand for a look not cross. Because he looked down and do not know how much porn stuff you're missing. Because they are there with the pubic skirt just waiting to let it get to see, waiting to slam you in the face but you will not even notice. Then they always laugh, tissue disappointed by life, laugh at anything. The only thing that matters to them is to be accepted by you, frightened boy. Puppy, you do not see how to blink? Do not you see I lost four kilos in a week, for you and for you? A gesture appreciated. Nice of him. Calculate them a bit ', come on. Do not think only of your eyebrows, not to think about your waxing. Look a bit '.
past four and a quarter of the night and the alarm will not be lenient with me tomorrow morning. The ashtray is filled with cigarette butts and Remedios has already been dismissed by Nicola. I feel like another cigarette, I want to suck a little more 'of life.
And I know where I want to be. On a bike, the passenger side.
Provided that there is a passenger on a bike.
I saw a very beautiful film, I recommend to everyone. "Palermo Shooting" by W. Wenders. The main character halfway through the film asking, "How do you know when you're dead? When not in dreams or when you're not dreaming?
Then I heard that we have to take everything seriously except ourselves, and I liked it. And now, with half-closed eyes, I confess that "I can not cope with life when I'm sober." And this is a quote before a truth. But Bukowski was in a bad, a bit 'worse than me.
I wish you all a good night.
to everyone, including the stars, the ones that first waterfall from the heavens just to please me and not anymore.
that the next star to fall just to please me, I may mention that several teeth in a smile!
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